Daily Musing #6 - Aging

It's four days ahead of my birthday. While I've always taken pride in my forward progress through time, and embraced the ever emerging silver in my beard, this year has marked a gradual shift in my philosophy. Could be that in the last three years I've watched three grandparents overtaken by dementia, and spend years with little to no quality of life at all. I find myself at a frequent crossroads, confused and stuck on the corner of “live it up while you can” and “you better take more care with yourself before the fucking wheels start falling off”. That said, I think the latter can inform the former. So I'm on some confusing journey of trying to improve my personal health through discipline, in order to remain indulgent and spontaneous. Thank God for my kids. If I can pin down two key motivating factors, they're as follows. 1. I want to be able to physically keep up with my kids and all their interests as they age. If one of them is into rock climbing or tennis or whatever, I want to be able to share that with them. 2. I want to be able to have sex when I'm older without fear of impotence or a heart attack. I think these are reasonable requests of myself.